Though he and I are back together, I won't trust, or love him as much as in the past, let alone pinning hopes on him. It was due to me putting too much into the r/s, giving my all, trusting him fully that he chose to betray my trust for certain reasons which I don't wish to spare the details here. During my darkest days, I had my beloved Trots who accompanied me through the night chatting even though she was dead tired, falling half asleep, cried for me upon knowing how he treated me, listen to me pour out my woes & giving me advices on what should i do rightfully in order not to be a weakling as in the past. Lis who had almost the same prob as me never fail to meet me mostly everyday. We went to eat & chat over at JB, hoping that we can throw away all our unhappiness, drank bottles of Barcardi to drown our sorrows, however we got ourselves even more miserable till we cried out together. Not leaving out wife & Annie who listened to my woes through the phone & cursed the used to be called "bastard" for me! As well as Sheena, Debbie & Stephanie who don't know about the exact details but still cared to probe the matter from me. Though the days were painful, I won't have survived the hellish days w/o all of you. You all simply lessen my sufferings & misery, won't have imagine how those days would be like w/o u all by my side..Won't ever forget what all my sweeties have done for me as you all are my true friends I'll cherish forever..All i hope now is that he should keep the promises he made, not break it again as in the past, and lastly not to take me for granted. That's all I ask for....
Look at my face..As pale as sheet, my eyes turned so swollen after crying.
Though I was going through darkest days, I still took LAME pics with Trots w/o fail! =P
Cuteee rite?!! that's Trot's Fanny! she'z foreva distracted la.. -.-
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